Short and Sweet

It has been a busy but fun day! After work we headed out to a friend’s house where we just chilled, ate hot dogs and hamburgers and watched the dressed up kids come for candy. For me it was especially fun because this is the first time I have been at a house where kids have been. Very cool experience!

It is great to be blessed with some awesome friends! I only have to get through 4 more days of this week and two more days of next week and then my trip starts! Of course this is  the time when you try to think of everything you need and inevitably you will forget something! My big bag is packed minus a few things that I am still using that I will take with me. Other than that I hope it is all there!

If you are a praying person, pray for our safety, pray for our health, pray for each of us as we prepare to start this journey. What we see and hear will impact each of us in a different way. Pray that the Lord provides time each day to debrief and process all we have seen and heard.

Pray for us when we get back that we can re-integrate smoothly! It is hard to go to one place, hear of trauma etc. and then come back to work like nothing has changed. Because the reality is, you cannot go to this type of place with this type of purpose and not be changed! Honestly, it is impossible! You will grow up and realize the finality of death and the harshness/hatred of humans! That is easy to say but not easy to feel!

Pray for me especially that my RA/Lupus/Fibro cooperates! That I do not have a flare, that I can keep up with my team. Pray that we all handle our medication well (we have to be on antimalarial meds). Pray for safety in our departures and arrivals. Pray our luggage arrives with us.

I won’t be able to update this while I am gone but even though this blog will be dark for a little bit, encourage others to read this when I come back. Here is where you will hear the stories and see the pictures! here is where what I feel and sense will go. In person I will probably not sure much, but here you will get more. So if you think someone will want to read about my journey to Africa and back..encourage them to subscribe to read about how my life will be changed!


Sometimes to you ever wish you had something to say…or do you think that you have things to say but you could not say them? This past week has been one of those weekends!  I do not know if it was the additional stress or the upcoming trip that is on my mind.

LOL! Let’s say my face knows when I am stressed…I had some acne pop up this weekend and I nearly cried! THANK GOD post adolescence my acne only appears when I am super stressed. To be quiet honest I did not realize I was that stressed but when your face shows you, it makes you stop and re-consider.

Another stress (smaller stress than what is really on my mind) is that I will be traveling to Africa in about a week. One major fear is that something will happen now that I am so close to leaving that will yank this opportunity out of my minds. I am not sure why I have that fear! Maybe because I have had  things get right down to the week before or the day before and something happens and I cannot do it. Honestly I think I will  be stressed about that until I actually get on the plane!

I have no fear of flying, traveling to a new country, visiting multiple cities etc. I am wondering how my body will do with all of this travel! I am praying for safety and health protection! I truly believe that this will be a life changing experience! Keep me in your thoughts as I travel.

My hope is to take pictures and then when I come home take some time to really share my experiences. Let me know if that is something you would be interested in hearing about. I know this blog is written to just explain on my feelings (self therapy) but I also want to make sure that at the same time this blog helps someone.

Maybe it will help you realize that you are not along in this journey of living with RALF, maybe you are struggling to have determination, trust, or even holding on to what God’s will is for your life! What ever your issues, I pray that you know you are never alone! God is good and will never leave you!

Our pastor gave a wonderful messages this Sunday! It really opened my eyes and my heart. My goal it to de-stress this week and remember that SOMETIMES I can say what I want to say and other times I may SOMETIMES need to write those thoughts!

Team Impact

I finally have a moment to write. I am sitting on the floor of my church watching team impact. The last 4 nights, I have been greeting several thousand people to my church!

I love seeing the community come together, it has been awesome. To get to know my church and to serve my community, both are great ways to forget about your pain, even if for just a moment!

God has been my constant comfort this week. In the moments where I feel alone and under attack, God has carried me. I have managed to put a smile on my face and a spirit of being loving to all I face. I pray that God releases me soon from this valley. The valley is dark, scary, and sad! lord I pray I get though this journey soon!

I am hopeful and joyful to one day soon be full of happiness and Joy. I’m thankful that to date the lord has given me peace and calm but I do look forward to moving forward.

Two weeks, I get to leave for Africa! I excited, nervous and so happy to be going! I will soon share where I will be so you can keep tabs!

Extra prayer request, I am planning on coming back to work the Monday after i get back to the US. I will have been traveling two days, 5 plane rides, 4 countries and a major time difference. Yes I had contemplated taking a day to sleep but I realize I also have a responsibility to return to my job as soon as possible. So pray for me as I try and mentally prepare for that part of my journey.

Pray for me as I have been in significant pain! The stress of my current situation is not helping, but yes I know that is life! Pray for a release soon! Pray for to remain capable of putting a smile on my face even if my heart is breaking. Pray I grow in wisdoms on how and to whom to share my burdens! Pray for me as I grow with this miserable disease!

Thank you for listening to me! Pray for peace and a cure!



Packing List!!!

I received my packing list tonight! YAY!! I’m so excited getting the finals items I did not have nor had I thought about! Poncho – check, hat – check, bandanas – check!

It is so fun packing yet nerve wracking too! Give me three weeks I will be in Africa (crossing fingers). Deep inside I am a little worried about getting sick before…mostly because of my increased stress over the past few weeks! Hopefully though thanks to all the prayers I will be fine!

Tonight was my second night helping out with Team Impact! Boy has it been an awesome experience! 🙂


Some awesome and comforting verses I found in the Bible.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”

” I can do everything through him who gives me strength.”

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. ”

“because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.”

“For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline. “

I will…

I will…never give up up on my joy and peace I get from knowing the Heavenly Father!

I will….pick myself up from the ground and keep fighting

I will…love the unloveable

I will…stay true to my values

I will…never to the best of my ability break my integrity

I will…smile even though I am sad

I will…laugh because I have hope and joy

I will..leave my struggles in God’s powerful and mighty hands

I will…never give up on what I believe

I will…have faith in my God even when things happen I do not understand

I will…trust that God has an awesome plan for my life

I will…be positive despite the negative

I will…always smile at someone

I will…believe in the power of hugs

I will…honor God’s rules

I will…do my best to not worry

I will…give my anxieties to the Lord

I will…hold on

I will…live with these diseases

I will…not let my joy go despite my RA, lupus or fibro

I will…strive to be a better wife, coworker, daughter and child of God

I will…what will you?